Saturday, June 22, 2013

Burned Biscuit

Disclaimer: This is something shared by my BFF. 

When I was a kid, my Mom liked to make breakfast food for dinner every now and then. And I remember one night in particular when she had made breakfast after a long, hard day at work. On that evening so long ago, my mom placed a plate of eggs, sausage and extremely burned biscuits in front of my dad. I remember waiting to see if anyone noticed! Yet all my dad did was reach for his biscuit, smile at my mom and ask me how my day was at school. I don't remember what I told him that night, but I do remember watching him smear butter and jelly on that ugly burned biscuit. He ate every bite of that thing... never made a face nor uttered a word about it! When I got up from the table that evening, I remember hearing my mom apologize to my dad for burning the biscuits. And I'll never forget what he said: "Honey, I love burned biscuits every now and then." Later that night, I went to kiss Daddy good night and I asked him if he really liked his biscuits burned. He wrapped me in his arms and said, "Your Momma put in a hard day at work today and she's real tired. And besides - a little burned biscuit never hurt anyone!" 

As I've grown older, I've thought about that many times. Life is full of imperfect things and imperfect people. I'm not the best at hardly anything, and I forget birthdays and anniversaries just like everyone else. But what I've learned over the years is that learning to accept each other's faults - and choosing to celebrate each other's differences - communicating is one of the most important keys to creating a healthy, growing, and lasting relationship... 

and that's my prayer for you today... that you will learn to take the good, the bad, and the ugly parts of your life and lay them at the feet of God. Because in the end, He's the only One who will be able to give you a relationship where a burnt biscuit isn't a deal-breaker! We could extend this to any relationship. In fact, understanding is the base of any relationship, be it a husband-wife or parent-child or friendship! "Don't put the key to your happiness in someone else's pocket - keep it in your own." 

So, please pass me a biscuit, and yes, the burned one will do just fine. And PLEASE pass this along to someone who has enriched your life. Be kinder than necessary because everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle. "Life without God is like an unsharpened pencil - it has no point." 

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Of Ex's and Extra's

I had a minor scare yesterday when my laptop crashed and didn't power up immediately. I realize that all my files, were not backed up. After a huge sigh of relief, I transferred all my files in an external hard drive. Whilst I did, I found this thread which was saved years back.

Kyle [5:17 AM]: msta?

Silvan [5:17 AM]: ok lang naman
Silvan [5:17 AM]: ikaw?

Kyle [5:17 AM]: maayos din
Kyle [5:17 AM]: nagiging ok n ang lahat
Kyle [5:17 AM]: may bago ako BF

Silvan [5:18 AM]: anong bago?

Kyle [5:18 AM]: dalawa na BF ko

Silvan [5:18 AM]: huh?

Kyle [5:18 AM]: uu

Silvan [5:18 AM]: sino yung isa?

Kyle [5:18 AM]: taga Cebu

Silvan [5:18 AM]: nasa cebu siya ngayon?

Kyle [5:18 AM]: so 3 n kami sa relationship
Kyle [5:18 AM]: nandito

Silvan [5:18 AM]: alam ni original bf?

Kyle [5:19 AM]: mag momove n sa bahay ngayong friday
Kyle [5:19 AM]: uu naman

Silvan [5:19 AM]: talaga

Kyle [5:19 AM]: kaya nga 3 na kami sa relationship

Silvan [5:19 AM]: paano set-up nun?

Kyle [5:19 AM]: sabi ni BF ko
Kyle [5:19 AM]: kesa magloko ako
Kyle [5:20 AM]: eh kukuha nlang kami ng pangatlo sa relationship
Kyle [5:20 AM]: actually ung bago kong bf matagal n nanligaw sa amin yun
Kyle [5:20 AM]: gusto nya maging part sa relationship namin

Silvan [5:20 AM]: mahirap yan

Kyle [5:21 AM]: uu nga
Kyle [5:21 AM]: pero try namin i work

Silvan [5:21 AM]: pero kung saan ka masaya friend...
Silvan [5:21 AM]: alam mo may isang maiiwan dyan

Kyle [5:21 AM]: pero sa ngayun
Kyle [5:21 AM]: ayaw ko p sana

Silvan [5:21 AM]: laging may isang maiiwan

Kyle [5:21 AM]: kasi hnd p totally heal ung sugat n ginawa ko sa BF ko

Silvan [5:22 AM]: sinabi mo ba?

Kyle [5:22 AM]: uu
Kyle [5:22 AM]: pero sabi ni BF

Silvan [5:22 AM]: at nagsisisi ka na ba talaga?

Kyle [5:22 AM]: mas kampanti sya iwan ako sa bahay na alam nya may nagbabantay sa akin
Kyle [5:22 AM]: uu naman
Kyle [5:22 AM]: nagsisi n ako
Kyle [5:22 AM]: pero alam ko kulang p yun
Kyle [5:23 AM]: gusto ko na bumalik sa normal ang lahat

Silvan [5:23 AM]: well, kung napagusapan niyo yan and desisyon niyo parehas. ok lan

Kyle [5:23 AM]: uu nga eh
Kyle [5:23 AM]: mabait nman yung guy

Silvan [5:24 AM]: cute ba

Kyle [5:24 AM]: uu

Silvan [5:24 AM]: anong itsura?

Kyle [5:24 AM]: hehehe

Silvan [5:24 AM]: mas cute kay original bf?

Kyle [5:24 AM]: mas bata kasi

Silvan [5:24 AM]: bata
Silvan [5:24 AM]: sangol?
Silvan [5:24 AM]: hahahahahaha

Kyle [5:24 AM]: 24
Kyle [5:24 AM]: hahahaha

Silvan [5:24 AM]: nong pangalan?

Kyle [5:25 AM]: di ko pa memorize
Kyle [5:25 AM]: ill let you know

Silvan [5:25 AM]: j cody?

Kyle [5:25 AM]: hahahha

Kyle [5:25 AM]: ayoko ng puti
Kyle [5:25 AM]: gusto pinoy lang

Silvan [5:25 AM]: cebuano si j cody

Kyle [5:25 AM]: weeee

Silvan [5:26 AM]: pinoy na pinoy. may killer eyes and hot body
Silvan [5:26 AM]: huh???
Silvan [5:26 AM]: anyway

Silvan [5:26 AM]: like i said, walang pakialam ang mundo kung yun ang set-up niyo

Kyle [5:26 AM]: tama

Silvan [5:27 AM]: pero sa ganyang relationship, laging may maiiwan

Kyle [5:27 AM]: pero malamang feeling ko di magttgal ang ganyang setup

Silvan [5:27 AM]: baka magaway lang kayo lalo

Kyle [5:27 AM]: hnd nmn cguro
Kyle [5:27 AM]: kahit ano mangyari di ko iiwan si Ben

Silvan [5:27 AM]: ending niyan kay cutie ka pa mapupunta
Silvan [5:28 AM]: wawa naman si original bf

Kyle [5:28 AM]: hahaha
Kyle [5:28 AM]: imposible yan

Silvan [5:28 AM]: bakit naman imposible?

Kyle [5:28 AM]: bat ako mapupunta dun i mas kilala ko na asawa ko
Kyle [5:29 AM]: at alagang alaga nya ako lagi
Kyle [5:29 AM]: eh yung isa
Kyle [5:29 AM]: bata pa
Kyle [5:29 AM]: marami p cguro sya mapagdadaanan
Kyle [5:29 AM]: pero kung kagaya ko sya
Kyle [5:29 AM]: malamang magttgal ang relationship

Silvan [5:29 AM]: sana ginawa niyo na lang set-up is open relationship
Silvan [5:30 AM]: eh paano kung si new bf parang ikaw pala?

Kyle [5:30 AM]: ayaw namin ganun
Kyle [5:30 AM]: mas prone sa sakit yun
Kyle [5:30 AM]: eh di mas ttgal relationship naming 3

Silvan [5:31 AM]: alam mo yun open relationship magiging prone ka lang sa sakit kung masyado kang malandi at di ka nagiingat
Silvan [5:31 AM]: and kung kani-kanino ka lang suma-sama

Kyle [5:31 AM]: un nga eh
Kyle [5:32 AM]: pero napag usapan na namin yan

Silvan [5:32 AM]: pero if that's your philosophy... i respect it

Kyle [5:32 AM]: pero ayaw namin ng ganyan set up
Kyle [5:32 AM]: hehehhee

Silvan [5:33 AM]: well... si new bf pwedeng lumandi sa iba?

Kyle [5:33 AM]: hindi
Kyle [5:34 AM]: bawal

Silvan [5:34 AM]: hmmmmm....
Silvan [5:34 AM]: pustahan tayo maghahanap din yan.

Kyle [5:35 AM]: aalamin nnmin yan
Kyle [5:35 AM]: may mga rules dapat
Kyle [5:35 AM]: kung ayaw nya
Kyle [5:35 AM]: ayos lang

Silvan [5:35 AM]: question: kung dumating yung time na kailangan mong mamili sa kanilang dalawa, sino pipiliin mo?

Kyle [5:35 AM]: si Ben

Silvan [5:36 AM]: see

Kyle [5:36 AM]: matagal n kami

Silvan [5:36 AM]: unfair kay new bf

Kyle [5:36 AM]: malalaman din nya yun
Kyle [5:36 AM]: sasabihin ko naman sa kanya

Silvan [5:36 AM]: basically di relationship yung inooffer niyo sa kaniya

Kyle [5:36 AM]: eh sya tong gusto manghimasok sa relationship namin

Silvan [5:37 AM]: ginagamit niyo lang siya... that's unfair for him

Kyle [5:37 AM]: pero later on..

Silvan [5:37 AM]: pero kung gusto niya ring magpagamit, di niyo na problema yun

Kyle [5:37 AM]: matutunan din namin sya mahalin
Kyle [5:37 AM]: tama k jan

Silvan [5:37 AM]: laging may isang tao na mas mamahalin mo Kyle. tandaan mo yan

Kyle [5:38 AM]: uu naman
Kyle [5:38 AM]: let's see
Kyle [5:38 AM]: kung anong mangyayari

Silvan [5:38 AM]: let see...
Silvan [5:39 AM]: akala ko ba gusto mo nang hiwalayan si orginal bf?

Kyle [5:39 AM]: dahil sa gusto ko ng maging single
Kyle [5:39 AM]: pero napag isipan ko na mas kailangan ko sya sa buhay ko
Kyle [5:39 AM]: so ayun
Kyle [5:40 AM]: niligawan ko uli

Silvan [5:40 AM]: you need him because you love him
Silvan [5:40 AM]: or
Silvan [5:40 AM]: you love him because you nee him?

Kyle [5:40 AM]: kailangan ko sya kasi mahal ko sya

Silvan [5:40 AM]: good answer!

Kyle [5:41 AM]: kasama na si Ben sa lahat ng pangarap ko
Kyle [5:41 AM]: sana nga lang with this new set  up namin hnd magugulo relationship
Kyle [5:41 AM]: pero pag tingin ko sumisira n sya
Kyle [5:42 AM]: kailangan na tong iistop

Silvan [5:42 AM]: let him know

Kyle [5:42 AM]: transparent naman ako
Kyle [5:42 AM]: kahit si Ben
Kyle [5:43 AM]: so ikaw
Kyle [5:43 AM]: msta n lovelife?

Silvan [5:43 AM]: you wouldn't be in this situation if you were transparent enough
Silvan [5:43 AM]: lovelife? may date ako last sunday... nakita pa kami ni abs

Kyle [5:43 AM]: hahaha
Kyle [5:44 AM]: so how was it?

Silvan [5:44 AM]: he was cute naman. 19 years old, half japanese. part time model. title holder

Kyle [5:45 AM]: wow ha
Kyle [5:45 AM]: ano name?

Silvan [5:45 AM]: DJ

Kyle [5:45 AM]: ahhh

Silvan [5:45 AM]: kilala mo?

Kyle [5:45 AM]: good for you
Kyle [5:45 AM]: hnd

Silvan [5:45 AM]: pero di pa ako ready to take it to the next level

Kyle [5:45 AM]: wag muna

Silvan [5:46 AM]: i don't think i can
Silvan [5:46 AM]: mabait naman siya and i think he likes me enough
Silvan [5:46 AM]: pero i'm not sure kung i feel the same

Kyle [5:47 AM]: hehehee
Kyle [5:47 AM]: may FB sya?

Silvan [5:47 AM]: malamang meron
Silvan [5:47 AM]: pero i didn't pother to ask eh
Silvan [5:47 AM]: *bother

Kyle [5:47 AM]: ah ok

Silvan [5:48 AM]: baka this coming weekend lalabas ulit kami. after ng photoshoot niya.

Kyle [5:48 AM]: hehehee
Kyle [5:49 AM]: marami ako friends na mga model din
Kyle [5:49 AM]: pero wala pa ako kilala na DJ

Silvan [5:49 AM]: di naman siya established na model

Kyle [5:49 AM]: ahhh

Silvan [5:49 AM]: part time lang
Kyle [5:49 AM]: pero mga malalandi sila lahat
Kyle [5:49 AM]: hehehe

Silvan [5:50 AM]: oo nga eh sabi ko nga sa kanya nung nagdate kami sa ganyang career maraming temptation
Silvan [5:50 AM]: di naman niya dineny pero sabi niya iba daw siya

Kyle [5:51 AM]: hmmm
Kyle [5:51 AM]: yan ang sinasabi ng lahat

Silvan [5:51 AM]: bigyan ko lang daw siya ng opportunity na kilalanin siya

Kyle [5:51 AM]: wow

Silvan [5:51 AM]: feeling ko tuloy haba-haba ng buhok ko
Silvan [5:51 AM]: heheheheeheh

Kyle [5:51 AM]: hahaha

Silvan [5:52 AM]: mukha naman siyang seryoso sa sinabi niya
Silvan [5:52 AM]: pero wala sa kanya yung problem eh
Silvan [5:52 AM]: nasa sa akin
Silvan [5:53 AM]: di pa talaga ako ready
Silvan [5:54 AM]: ako nga yung medyo nahihiya sa kanya. medyo showy kasi siya
Silvan [5:54 AM]: di ako sanay

Kyle [5:54 AM]: wow
Kyle [5:54 AM]: mas gusto ko yan
Kyle [5:54 AM]: showie

Silvan [5:57 AM]: di ako sanay... pakiramdam ko nafeel niya rin yun kaya di na siya masyado naging show later on the date. Pero kiniss niya ako bago kami naghiwalay daming nakatingin sa amin... tapos nung  nakasakay na siya ng cab tapos ako pauwi na, narinig ko yung isang girl nagsalita... "sayang yung dalawa di mo iisipin na bading pala. nakaloko.
Silvan [5:57 AM]: heheheheheheheeh

Kyle [5:58 AM]: HAHAHHA
Kyle [5:58 AM]: sweet naman pala ng manliligaw mo
Kyle [5:58 AM]: gusto ko yun
Kyle [5:59 AM]: kasi ganun ako

Silvan [5:59 AM]: well, di siya si Mavie
Silvan [6:00 AM]: i don't mind kissing Mavie sa daan
Silvan [6:00 AM]: holding his hands
Silvan [6:00 AM]: lahat ng PDF

Silvan [6:00 AM]: pero hindi siya si Mavie

Months after this conversation, I found out that their 3rd wheel is Mark

Friday, June 7, 2013

No Other Man

Once again, Kapuso Network has decided to break the silence on once was a taboo in the Philippine free TV by way of their latest public offering, My Husband’s Lover.

Replacing Richard Gutierrez’s military flop, My Husband’s Lover will tell the story of Vincent and Lally as their “normal” relationship is tested by Vincent’s sexuality.

Now the question is how Filipinos, straight and gay alike, will react to this radical but real life concept.

Are we now ready for this kind of teleserye?

Are we going to be forgiving this time?

Remember “Out”? The short lived, 1 hour lifestyle show for people like us?

Though it dominated the Mega Manila ratings back in 2004, for some reason, it still went off the air.

I was never a big fan of GMA 7 shows but I absolutely applaud their efforts to promote diversity and understanding for the third sex.

Vincent and the Other Man

I just hope that this telenovela can give justice to the hype that its network created while living up to the Filipino gay community’s expectation.

And If it does,

pray that it shall not suffer it's somewhat predecessor's fate.

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Angel: The Falling

read the first part here

So there we were, walking along Recto at 3 in the morning with my right arm around his shoulder.

After a while, he leaned resting his head on my side... at agad-agad na may May-I-hold-on-to-your-hands factor!

“Shyyyyyyet!” I thought. “Agad-agad? Pwedeng usap-usap muna?”

Well, come to think of it, I started it. I placed my arm comfortably on his shoulder as if he was mine. 

Or Silvan being Silvan, nag-assume nanaman ako. Pwede naman kasing sobrang lasing lang ang baby-faced angel kaya ganun maka-asta. 

Either-way, isang malaking kiber!!! Kilig to the bone marrows ako. Magjowa lang ang peg namin while treading the dark barren street. Choosy pa ba?

So I’m guessing we still have around 10 minutes of walking ahead of us so I figured we should better put this precious mock jowa-an time into good use and do what other real mag-jowa do when they are together in public... talk.

So in a span of almost 600 seconds, we have covered most of the formalities. His name is Paolo, a freshman student from CEU taking up Bachelor of Science in Nursing. Born from a broken family, he lives in Tondo with his grandparents and his younger brother while his mom works in the states. I also found out that he was actually on his way home from a night out with his schoolmates. Sobrang lasing ang loko kaya nakatulog sa sasakyan. Ayun lumagpas kaya sa may Morayta na nakababa.

He then asked me kung saan ako galing. I told him I had this craving for Lomi and Beef-Tofu kaya napadpad sa Espanya.

“Taga-saan ka ba?” He asked.

“Uhmmm... Kalookan. Sa Monumento.” I answered.

He then looked me in the eye with a mixture of amazement and probably doubt. “Huh? Layo nun ah... talagang dinayo mo pa Espanya?” 

Pak! Kinabahan ako kaya ayun deadma. Buti na lang sabay ng biglang liko namin ay ang pagbungad ng entrance ng motel. No need to change topic.

We went inside and I paid for the quickie. GV ko na ito. Ako naman kasi ang nag-invite. I asked for a ventilated room with our own toilet and paid for 2 bottles of mineral water and 2 towels. Then after I signed the logbook, we were immediately lead by the shabby roomboy to our room.

What I like about this motel is the location. It’s situated in a discreet place where people can get in and out without the mapanghusgang madlang people knowing. And for a cheap motel, it’s fairly clean.

I wish we could have checked in somewhere decent like Sogo which is just a stone throw away or Nice which is a little farther. But due to my budget constraints, this has to make do. 

We entered the room. Even though the room is clean, the smell of stale air greeted us with gusto. So habang si Paolo ay dumiretso sa kama, I opened the electric fan to let the air circulate and open the window just enough para makapasok ang hangin but close enough para kapag pinatay ang ilaw, there will be enough light para makita ko si Paolo in all his glory.

And  I got a peek of that glory paglingon ko sa kanya.

There he was innocently sleeping already. His pants neatly folded on the chair nearby. Amputi ng balbon legs ni Pao. Halatang may baby fats pa siya. I resisted touching his fair legs as my Mr Mushroom head sprang into attention. Nagkukumawala si “jun-jun”.

I walked past his semi-naked heavenly body and went straight into the door. I checked if it’s locked and turned off the lights.  

I sat on the other chair. As the stale air circulated out of the room, I watched as the light from the window crawls through his half naked body almost violating his innocence. I massaged my throbbing member releasing some of the tension.

Then it came to me like a wash of cold water. 


Eto na naman ako sa pag-aanalyze ng mga bagay-bagay. 

I always go for a no-strings-attached, hot and steamy fun. Kaya nga galing ako sa bahay landian that night. 

I told myself, this is just a quickie; nothing more.

Because it’s less complicated.

You fuck. You have fun. You go for the next hot fuck.

Sabi nga ng idol ko. “No aplogies, no excuses, no regrets”

No fuss.

But why do I suddenly feel this way? Gusto ko siyang angkinin but not in a way driven by lust and libido. At least not anymore. Not in a way that I am the only one that will enjoy this experience. I told myself, “I wouldn’t do this if he doesn’t want to”.

Konsensya? Ikaw ba yan?

With a sudden jerk of movement, biglang humarap si Pao sa akin na parang nabasa ang isip ko at tumambad ang kanyang natutulog na mukha. Habang humahalik sa kanyang mukha ang ilaw na galing sa bintana, lalong lumalalim ang pagkabighani ko sa kanya. His face was so immaculately fragile.

With a sigh, I took my pants off and unbuttoned my shirt folding it neatly beside his stuff. My pole now starting to get soft, I took one of the towels and went straight into the bathroom with hopes that the cold water will wash away my uneasiness... It didn’t. 

I pat my body dry and wrapped it around my waist. I went straight to the table and put my cotton, boxers back on. Then I sat beside the bed and slowly unbutton his shirt, took it off him and fold it neatly on top of his jeans. Then humiga na ako sa tabi niya and hugged him. 

Ambango ng pawis ni Pao, magkahalong alak at Clinique Happy. Tulad ng magkahalong nararamdaman ko habang kayakap ko siya. Then he turned facing the wall. His cotton covered dick brushing my boxer covered shaft as he turned. Puta! Antambok ng puwet niya! I resisted the urge touch those buns but the moment my groin touched his smooth back, my dick turned steel hard again. We spooned. If he was awake, he would have felt how hard my boner was... again I resisted.

I kissed him in the neck and tried to get some sleep just enjoying the warmth of his body flowing through mine. 

Then just when my dick is already soft and I’m almost asleep, he turned again facing me this time with one hand inside his brief the other holding my head. He looked me in the eye, smiled and kissed me full on the lips.